From the time I was born I knew I was special, but not this kind of special. For most of my life that I can remember, I was taken advantage of by men. I never quite understood why I would constantly put myself in the position to be used and abused, but I did. I grew up in a family that does not speak on many issues, such as sex, STD's, diseases and god forbid mental health. As an adult I was told that as a child I was hidden from the public because I was ugly. that was enough to cause trauma in my mind that made me very insecure and unsure of myself and my worth. I grew up thinking that I wasn't in my right family, I constantly second guess myself. I craved attention. In high school, I would faint almost every Monday, which was my way of getting the attention that I so craved at home. I was the first child of my mother, but lived in a home with so many cousins that...
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